I am a 43 (I can't believe ive been here 3 years!) year young woman who was once happy, fulfilled, newly in love and about to start her life over when perimenopause took it all away from me. Without warning, my world and everything I believed in about myself and my life, was decimated three years ago after a missed period and I have never been the same. There are no words to describe this unexpected place I have found myself in. This is truly the dark night of the soul. I feel as if I have lost everything including and most importantly the one thing I could always count on...Me.....and to be quite honest, after 2 1/2 years of this unending nightmare (a euphemism for this journey), I am losing all hope. As Dante said...."Abandon all hope, ye who enter here" as he wrote about passing through the gate of hell. That is what perimenopause has been like for me. The only saving grace has been the women who've gone before me and who are here now, holding me up on their angel wings. God bless you all, and thank you from the bottom of my heart.